Michele wrote:
> Well I am really having a hard time now.
>
> Thanks for all of your kind words, thoughts and suggestions. They have
> really helped.
>
> I had a rough weekend. Started spotting on Thursday. This is typical
> for me so I tried not to let it bother mee too much. Then the cramps
> came back and my back pain increased. Saturday AM the back pain was so
> bad I ws crawling on the floor. DD thought it was fun, but I surely
> didn't. Then it got better and the spotting got heavier. I was really
> down in the dumps and then I saw blood. It stopped, but it was enough
> for me to say "well, it's over" DH is of course trying to stay
> positive until the RE says it didn't work; but I as the woman who's
> body is definately trying to say something isn't as positive.
>
> I called the RE on the way in this AM to see what my options were. I
> wasn't scheduled to go in until Friday but if it didn't work I don't
> see the point in continuing these meds until then. They said I could
> come in Wednesday. They also said to try and stay positive, they have
> see this before and it still come out positive, but I could hear it in
> her voice that maybe this just wasn't the time for me.
>
> Who knows. I could be wrong. I do have a little piece of me that is
> trying to be hopeful. I am not ready to cut all my losses yet. There
> is a tiny glimmer of hope.
>
> I do have to say that this BB has gotten alot quieter lately. I know
> that Megan, Yael & Jade have graduated and congrats to them for that
> wonderful news; but please don't tell me that I am now the only one
> left here?
>
> Is there anyone else out there with me?
{{{{{{{{{{{Michele}}}}}}}}
Try to hang in there, Michele!! I know it's hard :*((from LOOOOOOOONG
experience) but I've learned over time that the times I was certain
a cycle didn't work, it did--and many times I was absolutely certain
a cycle DID work, it didn't. :*( So you can never really tell until
the actual testing day gets here.
The bleeding could be either implantation (which I am praying it is for
you!) or your hormone levels could be dropping in prep for AF--again, no
way to know for sure. With some of my pgs, I've had pre-AF spotting,
with others, NADA.
Have you tried testing with some of those 5 days early hpts? Hopefully
you will get a big +++++++++++++++++++ and a wonderful hcg count when
you officially test!!
Don't feel alone. You aren't, even if people aren't actively posting,
there's many here lurking who wish and pray for the best for you.
Hang in there. I'm praying for you and a positive result.
{{{{{{More Hugs}}}}}}
Take care,
Carolyne in TX
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