Well I am really having a hard time now.
Thanks for all of your kind words, thoughts and suggestions. They have
really helped.
I had a rough weekend. Started spotting on Thursday. This is typical
for me so I tried not to let it bother mee too much. Then the cramps
came back and my back pain increased. Saturday AM the back pain was so
bad I ws crawling on the floor. DD thought it was fun, but I surely
didn't. Then it got better and the spotting got heavier. I was really
down in the dumps and then I saw blood. It stopped, but it was enough
for me to say "well, it's over" DH is of course trying to stay
positive until the RE says it didn't work; but I as the woman who's
body is definately trying to say something isn't as positive.
I called the RE on the way in this AM to see what my options were. I
wasn't scheduled to go in until Friday but if it didn't work I don't
see the point in continuing these meds until then. They said I could
come in Wednesday. They also said to try and stay positive, they have
see this before and it still come out positive, but I could hear it in
her voice that maybe this just wasn't the time for me.
Who knows. I could be wrong. I do have a little piece of me that is
trying to be hopeful. I am not ready to cut all my losses yet. There
is a tiny glimmer of hope.
I do have to say that this BB has gotten alot quieter lately. I know
that Megan, Yael & Jade have graduated and congrats to them for that
wonderful news; but please don't tell me that I am now the only one
left here?
Is there anyone else out there with me?
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