Hey guys,
Thanks for the hope and prayers, but its over. Got AF last
night....F...ing 3-4 days early. I'm so mad!!!!!!!!! Really thought
last weekend was implantation spotting... DH thinks we should/need a
break. I know he's right, but cant come to terms with it. The thing
is, we have a family event overseas early next year that I cant really
miss... and IF I got preg in the next few months the baby would either
be too little to travel or I'd be too preg to travel, so timing wise
its probably a good idea to take a break...but that would mean a 5
month break...seems too long...don't know what to do...so confused.
DH will accept whatever decision I make so that's good, but part of me
wishes he'd just make it for me. Maybe one more round with gonal-f,
then break (4 months), then IVF...Don't know what I did wrong this time!
Maybe it IS my weight ( I could loose a good 40 lbs) Maybe I should
concentrate on getting healthier...my DS is 4.5 already....HATE the idea
of making the sibling age gap bigger...if there is ever going to be a
sibling :-(
Sorry to be a downer...just really sad today.
I'll write again soon. Hope you all are having a better day.
-J in NY
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