On Jul 27, 5:14=A0am, ros...@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
wrote:
> Hi,
>
> I'm doing well. =A0I have been put on Dostinex and it's now regulated my
> cycle where I have regular AF every 32 days the way I used to. =A0I
> thought all the fertility treatments/meds were screwing up my cycle,
> but my prolactin hormone levels were up and causing my body to think
> I'd just had a baby and was breast-feeding. =A0I have a growth on my
> pituatory gland which relases prolactin. =A0I will go in for an MRI to
> followup on it, but it's not serious/dangerous.
>
> Right now started AF and going into the clinic tomorrow to use up my
> last 4 frosties.
>
> If that fails, not sure what I will do. =A0After 2 failed fresh IVF
> cycles and 2 failed FET cycles, it really hurts to keep failing over
> and over again. =A0I just turned 43, so I really have this year to try
> and make it work. =A0I think that after that I have to give up the
> dream. =A0It's very hard to envision my life without children. =A0I
alway=
s
> thought I would have them. =A0Most moms and dads are great and love
> their children, but when I hear stories of children that are abused
> and/or unwanted it breaks my heart and I don't understand why those
> types of parents are blessed with children. =A0So many things in life
> make no sense to me (like my IF) and other women/men who similarly
> struggle with the same problem. =A0I know I got married when I was older
> (38), but I really did believe I could still have children. =A0I didn't
> think menopause was around the corner and my grandparents had children
> well into their forties.
>
> I'm tired of the struggle. =A0DH wants me to keep going, but I just
> don't know how much more I can do. =A0I feel like IF has completely
> taken over my life for the past 3 years with non-stop doctors visits
> and cycling. =A0I feel guilty for feeling this way....and I tell myself
> that DH isn't the one undergoing all the procedures/tests etc.
>
> Samantha, I suppose I've been luckier in that many of my friends are
> childless. =A0Some by choice, others got married but divorced and never
> had children with their partners. =A0I'm very glad to see that you're
> not feeling as guilty. =A0You actually aren't to blame and you shouldn't
> feel any guilt at all. =A0This isn't your fault and not something you
> would have ever wished on yourself. =A0I don't feel guilt at all, what I
> really feel is tremendous sadness sometimes and grief.
>
> Vicky you never know Clomid might work. =A0It has worked for others.
>
> Good luck to all of you.
>
> Rosa
Rosa are you having all 4 frosties transferred? I have everything
crossed for you.
I too have been very tired of this constant struggle for a long time
now, and it makes no sense to me either. I've been on meds for so long
now that I've forgotten what it feels like not to be under the
influence of hormones. IF truly does take over our lives. The end of
this struggle is coming into sight for me too. I'm fairly hopefull for
this next cycle, but at the same time can't see how it will be a
different outcome when previous embryos didn't implant after following
all advice.
I'd like to somehow be prepared and have a plan, so that if the time
comes when we have to call it a day, I can focuss on a new different
dream, however I'm at a bit of a loss to find one. I guess once the
decision is made and accepted, the uncertanty gone, I'd start to see
things differently and be able to look towards happiness in a
different future. At least thats what I hope.
Anyway, we need to stay positive and hopefull for these next
tries.Stick little frosties stick.
Vicki, I've found moving pretty stressful in the past and to do it
whilst on hormone treatments, I think you're pretty brave. Hope it all
goes really smoothly.
Samantha
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