(((Samantha))) I know exactly how you feel. I've been on these IF
boards for about 10 years, and I've seen so many friends come and go
because of their children. Right now I'm on CD 32 I think. I'm just
waiting for DH to get home so I can start my Provera. Next month we
go up to 100 mgs of clomid. I know I'm just going through piddly
stuff compared to some of you girls. I almost feel like I'm wasting
my time on clomid, being that it never worked years ago. My DH and I
right now are so excited as we've put in an offer on a house, and
they've accepted!!! Closing date is set for August 29th, but at the
rate things are moving we should be in a lot sooner :)
Good luck to all you girls!
Vicki
On Jul 25, 5:04 am, saucepan_...@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
wrote:
> Hi ladies,
>
> Just thought I'd do a quick post and see how you are all doing. It's
> certainly quiet here at the mo.
> I've been gaining strength both physically and mentally since the last
> round of IVF, unfortunately I've been gaining a fair few pounds
> aswell! With only 7 weeks left before starting stimulation again, I
> think I best not put the diet off any longer. Oh how I detest going
> without all the yummy things.
> I'm pretty proud of myself right now as I've been very brave and
> contacted a couple of my closest friends who recently have had
> children. It may not sound much but I haven't spoken to them since
> finding out they were pregnant nearly 2 years ago, even the thought of
> ringing them ended up with me getting in a state and floods of tears.
> Anyway I've really missed them, and one day last week thought I'd just
> take the plunge. Soooo pleased I did, they were both very
> understanding, both exactly the same ( not sure why but I was
> convinced they'd be different and very wrapped up in motherhood) and
> we had a nice long chat without them feeling the need to go on about
> their children. I've been really isolating myself over the last few
> years, almost all of my old friends are now mothers and I lost contact
> with most of them, the friends that live near me I've been avoiding. I
> felt they'd all moved on to this fantastic world of motherhood where
> all is perfect and wonderful, a world closed to me, where I'd be
> unwelcome.
> I've made a fair bit of progress and overcome quite a few negative
> unlogical feelings, that have pained me for a long time, l no longer
> feel ashamed and guilty. Still have many other issues but now believe
> that eventually, whatever the outcome, with time I'll find peace with
> myself.
> Sorry, I only meant this to be a short post and I've ended up rambling
> on.
> Really hope you are all well.
> Samantha
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