Hi ladies,
Just thought I'd do a quick post and see how you are all doing. It's
certainly quiet here at the mo.
I've been gaining strength both physically and mentally since the last
round of IVF, unfortunately I've been gaining a fair few pounds
aswell! With only 7 weeks left before starting stimulation again, I
think I best not put the diet off any longer. Oh how I detest going
without all the yummy things.
I'm pretty proud of myself right now as I've been very brave and
contacted a couple of my closest friends who recently have had
children. It may not sound much but I haven't spoken to them since
finding out they were pregnant nearly 2 years ago, even the thought of
ringing them ended up with me getting in a state and floods of tears.
Anyway I've really missed them, and one day last week thought I'd just
take the plunge. Soooo pleased I did, they were both very
understanding, both exactly the same ( not sure why but I was
convinced they'd be different and very wrapped up in motherhood) and
we had a nice long chat without them feeling the need to go on about
their children. I've been really isolating myself over the last few
years, almost all of my old friends are now mothers and I lost contact
with most of them, the friends that live near me I've been avoiding. I
felt they'd all moved on to this fantastic world of motherhood where
all is perfect and wonderful, a world closed to me, where I'd be
unwelcome.
I've made a fair bit of progress and overcome quite a few negative
unlogical feelings, that have pained me for a long time, l no longer
feel ashamed and guilty. Still have many other issues but now believe
that eventually, whatever the outcome, with time I'll find peace with
myself.
Sorry, I only meant this to be a short post and I've ended up rambling
on.
Really hope you are all well.
Samantha
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