My father isn't doing so well (death and dying ment)

My dad as most of you already know has Alzheimer's disease and heart
failure.  He is in hospice at home right now.  We were at mom and
dad's house all day yesterday he was breathing really labored so they
had to put oxygen on him all day yesterday.  He is only using 1/3 of
his lungs to breathe.  There is also no more urine output either, it
just looks like blood coming out of his catheter bag.  I was a bundle
of nerves yesterday.  The hospice nurses say it looks like the
beginning of organ failure.  I still haven't said my goodbuys yet.
It's so hard.  I have never lost really anyone close to me, i dont see
how im going to get through this.  Just thought i would let you all
know to keep all our family close and extended family in your thoughts
and prayers.  thanks so much.


Clarice